Thankful

I have been miserable lately. The source of this misery? I have not been trusting God. I have also been feeling like my life is empty and pointless. I used to have a mission of sharing God's love with others, but lately I have been wondering, What has God even done for me that I should share his love with others? Epiphany: All of this misery has been entangled in one big mistake, which is not recognizing all that God has done-and is doing-for me. I believe that it is foundational to simply love God for who He is and not because of what He does for us. However, a miserable attitude springs from an ungrateful heart. God made me to share His love with people, and it's time to step up to the task once again! So that brings up the question, what HAS God done for me? So I decided to brainstorm and list some things.

God has protected me from myself in that He has kept me from making some epic mistakes in the relationship department. Sometimes He held me back, sometimes He counseled me, and sometimes He just withheld the opportunity.

God has placed some of the most amazing people in my life to mentor and counsel me. He has used some of you to save my life.

God has placed me in wonderful churches and groups at the exact times that I needed to be there.

God has placed me in the lives of others and used me in ways that I never even understood at the time. God ALWAYS forgives me, even when I'm a big jerk. To put it mildly....

God always comes through financially. I just need to stop being too prideful to ask for help.

God has led me to a meaningful, rewarding job that I wouldn't have seen myself doing. I used to be afraid of people who were different than me, but I have ended up learning a lot from these kids. And guess what-we're not so different.

I used to be enslaved to a dark, twisted way of thinking and some very destructive habits. I'm not going back there again.
And that is part of the reason that I am listing these blessings-so that I never, EVER go back to the way I was.